[there's an odd wave of relief that washes over nam soon at the sound of heung soo's agreement. regardless of how necessary the situation clearly is, the concern did still linger that he would somehow try to refuse the help. but since heung soo is going to comply, nam soon knows that he has to steady his resolve.
he may have cracked seeing his best friend in this state, the guilt and knowing of his own fault and involvement still so prevalent, but he knows he can't linger on it. not for his own sake (a guy who locks himself away for a year out of guilt and misery has already thrown away too much of his pride for that, after all), but for heung soo's. regardless of the cause or origin, he's in pain now, and he needs someone to help him. he needs someone to not leave him behind like in the past, and he needs someone who can keep their word on all counts — including transporting 70 kilos of bastard to a doctor.]
You know I'm stronger than I look. [nam soon's words come out with a shaky breath, but it's clear that he's trying to say the words with the normal brand of snark needed for moments when heung soo acts like a mother hen. the fact he can do that at all in that sort of pain makes that mentality feel even more necessary, though. heung soo knows best that the person making this offer is one who can definitely handle it.
...and even if it became a struggle, nam soon has every intent of enduring it until they get somewhere. he doesn't really want to linger, though. the more they sit around, the longer it'll take to get heung soo patched up and back on his feet again. that's what nam soon wants more than anything, now that they've escaped the monster (or whatever it was). so he turns, back facing heung soo.]
Grab on. [he doesn't want to move heung soo's leg any more than necessary; it'll be easier for him to left heung soo once he's holding on with a steady grip. it's better this way though, he thinks. at least like this, nam soon can keep his unsteady expressions from being seen by the one person he doesn't want seeing. as much as he's trying, there are plenty of expressions he just can't entirely hide in this state...
and it's definitely easier if heung soo can't see any of them. not the guilt, not the worry, and definitely not any strain he may incur by going about things this way.]
don'T........ jae.... hee... yah....
he may have cracked seeing his best friend in this state, the guilt and knowing of his own fault and involvement still so prevalent, but he knows he can't linger on it. not for his own sake (a guy who locks himself away for a year out of guilt and misery has already thrown away too much of his pride for that, after all), but for heung soo's. regardless of the cause or origin, he's in pain now, and he needs someone to help him. he needs someone to not leave him behind like in the past, and he needs someone who can keep their word on all counts — including transporting 70 kilos of bastard to a doctor.]
You know I'm stronger than I look. [nam soon's words come out with a shaky breath, but it's clear that he's trying to say the words with the normal brand of snark needed for moments when heung soo acts like a mother hen. the fact he can do that at all in that sort of pain makes that mentality feel even more necessary, though. heung soo knows best that the person making this offer is one who can definitely handle it.
...and even if it became a struggle, nam soon has every intent of enduring it until they get somewhere. he doesn't really want to linger, though. the more they sit around, the longer it'll take to get heung soo patched up and back on his feet again. that's what nam soon wants more than anything, now that they've escaped the monster (or whatever it was). so he turns, back facing heung soo.]
Grab on. [he doesn't want to move heung soo's leg any more than necessary; it'll be easier for him to left heung soo once he's holding on with a steady grip. it's better this way though, he thinks. at least like this, nam soon can keep his unsteady expressions from being seen by the one person he doesn't want seeing. as much as he's trying, there are plenty of expressions he just can't entirely hide in this state...
and it's definitely easier if heung soo can't see any of them. not the guilt, not the worry, and definitely not any strain he may incur by going about things this way.]