[ He knows it's just deflecting the question, it's not a real answer. It's why his grip doesn't loosen, and his gaze doesn't stop meeting the other's. It's almost ironic, really. Three years ago he would have given up pretty much everything - even though he already had, in a sense - just to make sure that Nam Soon didn't run away, that he wouldn't leave him behind. If he would have had a chance, he would have told him to stay, but Nam Soon ran before he could do a thing about it.
This is the opposite. He wants Nam Soon to run and live, but now he refuses to leave - and it almost makes him bitter enough to make some remark about it, to ask him if running away isn't supposed to be his speciality, but he doesn't want to make things even worse on both of them right now. He at least has enough awareness of the situation to not try some shit like that.
(Besides, if he's truly honest with himself -- as much as he wants Nam Soon to live, as much as he wants him to run.. the idea of being left behind again is just as scary as the idea of death.) ]
Then what are you going to do if I can't run anymore? What if it notices and heads towards me? [ His voice is shaking too by now. With the fear, mostly, but honestly - all of this is making him a little more emotional than he'd like to be right now, and he tries to swallow thickly and force it down the best he can. Because he can see that resolve in his best friend's eyes, and he knows what it means. Nam Soon's the type who would try and distract it just to give him a little bit more time. It was the same with those gangsters, right? When he can't flee, Nam Soon doesn't flee either, but fights.
Even if this is an impossible battle.
But on the other hand, it's also hard to miss the fear that mixes in with the resolve. He might be brave and strong (just like Heung Soo) and he might be Tsunami (not so much like Heung Soo), but of course he's just scared too. This whole situation is something way above their heads, and he wants nothing more than for both of them to find a way out of this just like they always have with every situation they've dealt with before rather than Nam Soon getting himself killed in what he might see as some weird kind of repayment that Heung Soo never wanted. Whatever happens, just don't do that for his sake-- ]
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This is the opposite. He wants Nam Soon to run and live, but now he refuses to leave - and it almost makes him bitter enough to make some remark about it, to ask him if running away isn't supposed to be his speciality, but he doesn't want to make things even worse on both of them right now. He at least has enough awareness of the situation to not try some shit like that.
(Besides, if he's truly honest with himself -- as much as he wants Nam Soon to live, as much as he wants him to run.. the idea of being left behind again is just as scary as the idea of death.) ]
Then what are you going to do if I can't run anymore? What if it notices and heads towards me? [ His voice is shaking too by now. With the fear, mostly, but honestly - all of this is making him a little more emotional than he'd like to be right now, and he tries to swallow thickly and force it down the best he can. Because he can see that resolve in his best friend's eyes, and he knows what it means. Nam Soon's the type who would try and distract it just to give him a little bit more time. It was the same with those gangsters, right? When he can't flee, Nam Soon doesn't flee either, but fights.
Even if this is an impossible battle.
But on the other hand, it's also hard to miss the fear that mixes in with the resolve. He might be brave and strong (just like Heung Soo) and he might be Tsunami (not so much like Heung Soo), but of course he's just scared too. This whole situation is something way above their heads, and he wants nothing more than for both of them to find a way out of this just like they always have with every situation they've dealt with before rather than Nam Soon getting himself killed in what he might see as some weird kind of repayment that Heung Soo never wanted. Whatever happens, just don't do that for his sake-- ]
.. Don't talk big when you're scared too.
[ Go Nam Soon, he's scared to death right now. ]