[right now, they're both in way over their heads. this is the first time that nam soon can ever remember having a feeling quite like this, and it's not good. arguably, it's worse than the incident three years ago because it's so far gone and out of their control. neither of them was at fault for this, but now the risks are too high to face anything head on.
he has to stop and think about this for a minute, because there's no good approach. they could run, sure, but then what? he can't... he can't let anything bad happen to heung soo, no matter what the cost is. it's a scary notion, but he'd rather die so heung soo can live if that's what it takes to get his best friend out of this nightmare safely. after the ways he'd been wronged — well, maybe this is is the only way he can make up for all the ways he'd fucked up back then. in his fear, it doesn't occur to him that heung soo may disagree, because nam soon doesn't see much value in his life outside of being with his best friend anyway.
he's dumb and selfish enough to not immediately recognize the consequences of this train of thought. the fear and panic definitely dictate everything that comes next.]
Go. Go, and don't look back. [his jaw sets as he says it, determination coursing through him. of course, nam soon will keep pace right behind him, but there's no way in hell he would dream of running if it means leaving heung soo behind if he falters. if that... thing comes for them, he'll play the distraction — whatever it takes to make sure heung soo gets out of this place.]
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[right now, they're both in way over their heads. this is the first time that nam soon can ever remember having a feeling quite like this, and it's not good. arguably, it's worse than the incident three years ago because it's so far gone and out of their control. neither of them was at fault for this, but now the risks are too high to face anything head on.
he has to stop and think about this for a minute, because there's no good approach. they could run, sure, but then what? he can't... he can't let anything bad happen to heung soo, no matter what the cost is. it's a scary notion, but he'd rather die so heung soo can live if that's what it takes to get his best friend out of this nightmare safely. after the ways he'd been wronged — well, maybe this is is the only way he can make up for all the ways he'd fucked up back then. in his fear, it doesn't occur to him that heung soo may disagree, because nam soon doesn't see much value in his life outside of being with his best friend anyway.
he's dumb and selfish enough to not immediately recognize the consequences of this train of thought. the fear and panic definitely dictate everything that comes next.]
Go. Go, and don't look back. [his jaw sets as he says it, determination coursing through him. of course, nam soon will keep pace right behind him, but there's no way in hell he would dream of running if it means leaving heung soo behind if he falters. if that... thing comes for them, he'll play the distraction — whatever it takes to make sure heung soo gets out of this place.]