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[allfortheclan]

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[sunshrouded]

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Tenka's emotions on Shirasu are the mixed things in the world. they're jumbled and confusing and Tenka is only aware of some of them.

but to start off, Tenka doesn't hold grudges. he tries very hard to judge people based on who they are now in that current time. like when the doctor asks Tenka how he feels about Shirasu and what he thinks about his lineage, Tenka thinks that the Fuuma are dead and therefore Shirasu shouldn't be judged based on his family or his past. that's not fair. Instead, Shirasu is Tenka's friend solely because Tenka's been taken care of by Shirasu for all those years. it's part of Tenka's natural philosophy that he takes people as they are and judges them based on their actions and even then, he gives them the benefit of the doubt.

except ever since he's arrived, Shirasu's been a struggle to deal with. Tenka trusted Shirasu for so long and he felt betrayed when he heard that the Fuuma had resurfaced and then that Shirasu was working for the Orochi, but he was willing to hear him out. but then Shirasu started his secret-keeping and the thing is that Tenka can't really judge that.... sort of. he's a secret keeper himself but Shirasu has always, always been the exception to that and every time Shirasu told him that Tenka can ask but there's no guaranteed answer, he gets mad. Tenka gets mad because he hates that he still wants to rely on Shirasu like they were before but this relationship isn't equal anymore. they used to stand next to each other proudly and had each other's backs, but now Tenka feels like he can barely tell Shirasu anything because it might jeopardize other people

because Tenka doesn't think Shirasu would ever hurt him. Even now, Tenka has noticed how Shirasu goes out of his way to avoid causing him injury or anything more than temporary pain. But Tenka never thinks in terms of himself (even now that he's made the decision that he wants to stay alive more than anything else). He thinks in terms of the people around him and when he considers the people he's closest to, he sees Mary, Oona, Lily, Kagemitsu, Nishiki, and Sousei. He doesn't know that Mary knows Shirasu but the rest of them do. and Lily knows that Tenka and Shirasu are friends and he's so afraid that if Lily trusts Shirasu, it'll be because Tenka perpetuated it. and there's nothing protecting Lily from being betrayed. the same goes for Sousei and it's clear that Shirasu and Sousei don't even like each other. but Tenka doesn't like that. he understands, but he doesn't like it.

and if it came down to it, if Shirasu hurt Sousei, that'd be the end of the line because Sousei's the most important person to Tenka in Cerealia at this point. and the biggest threat to Sousei is Shirasu and Tenka's not sure how to reconcile that in his head.

because now that Tenka's realized that Shirasu has put his family in so much jeopardy, Tenka just... doesn't trust Shirasu with his family, including his adopted kids. Oona, Lily, Mary, and Hinata in particular are close to Tenka's heart and having them even be near Shirasu makes him nervous because one day they might disappear because of Shirasu too. like even when they're having tea, Tenka probably doesn't mention any of them because he doesn't want Shirasu to even look at them too closely. it's only half-conscious but Shirasu's raised so many alarms at this point that he's partially entered the realm of people that Tenka hides things from, for the sake of the safety of others

but at the same time, he's still just. Someone that Tenka is used to interacting with. So sometimes Tenka slips and will say things about what he's feeling and lets his emotions show than he normally does with others. but he's still lost his spot at Tenka's confidant because of what he's done. Tenka just still hasn't forgiven Shirasu and he doesn't know how to because Tenka's family means the entire world to him. He doesn't know how to feel about Shirasu throwing them away and yet still trying to have a place in their life.

Tenka wants Shirasu to be in his life and thinks he needs to make up for his sins. The one struggle with this is that being part of Tenka's life means also involving yourself with everyone else that Tenka cares about and he honestly doesn't trust Shirasu with their well-being anymore. Not when Shirasu's been the main cause of Tenka losing family so far.

yet there's still a piece of his heart that wants to trust Shirasu and he misses him and wants him back in his life but Tenka is honestly smart enough to know that it's just not that easy. He can't let Shirasu in that close again and he's going to try his hardest to keep it from happening.