[ the blue screen of death threatens to derail every train of thought running in Souji's mind, but he pushes back with a single, biting phrase ]
I'm not your father. [ he's not, he can't be. Okita Souji is a lot of things, a killer and a murderer and a sad excuse for a demon, but those are all things that he's chosen for himself, that he could see himself become. He gave up marriage, love, and having children the moment he entered the Shinsengumi, the moment he became a sword, the moment he became a monster. ]
[ And even so, the deepest most-buried part of him flashes back to the image of a single girl ]
[ but that's not possible either, so he crushes it brutally back into his mind. ]
I'm not. [ His face is perfectly cold, but not expressionless. He just looks angry, but also more than a little shaken. He looks at Kaoru and tells himself 'no'. It isn't possible. ] I'm not your Okita Souji, because there's no way I'd have a child.
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I'm not your father. [ he's not, he can't be. Okita Souji is a lot of things, a killer and a murderer and a sad excuse for a demon, but those are all things that he's chosen for himself, that he could see himself become. He gave up marriage, love, and having children the moment he entered the Shinsengumi, the moment he became a sword, the moment he became a monster. ]
[ And even so, the deepest most-buried part of him flashes back to the image of a single girl ]
[ but that's not possible either, so he crushes it brutally back into his mind. ]
I'm not. [ His face is perfectly cold, but not expressionless. He just looks angry, but also more than a little shaken. He looks at Kaoru and tells himself 'no'. It isn't possible. ] I'm not your Okita Souji, because there's no way I'd have a child.